My mission, should I choose to accept it, is to find peace with exactly who and what I am. To take pride in my thoughts, my appearance, my talents, my flaws and to stop this incessant worrying that I can’t be loved as I am. – Anais Nin
I have had more moments of clarity, focus, and peace than I have ever experienced in my adult life. (I am now 47.) It has been necessary to force myself to make a conscious effort to live more in the “now” moment. For someone who has spent her life “chasing rabbits”, this has been no small feat. Happily, I find myself on the cusp of a rebirth.
re·birth : a period of new life, growth, or activity
What’s funny is that it doesn’t look like what I thought it would. I’m not going back to school or changing zip codes. I’m not even making a career change. I’ve let go of some ideals I’ve had, but not necessarily to make room for new ones. Instead, living in the moment has helped me to love the moment as well.
Now, before you roll your eyes or do that finger motion like you’re gagging yourself, you need to understand (or at least try) that from where I came, this is a HUGE hug-it-out declaration! My being happy with my “now” life means I can celebrate the things that are pretty darn good and I can see more clearly the things that need more work. I’m kinder to myself and to the people around me. I also feel I am better able to deal with the uncertainties of what lies ahead because being in a better place emotionally and mentally has opened up my spiritual life as well. It’s a really good place to be.